Pretending

I know that we’re all human and we all have feelings

But why have I begun to fall for you?

What is this world coming to?

Me falling for a man who treats me like a friend.

Me wanting more but all I can do is pretend.

Pretend that I don’t have feelings for you.

Pretend that you don’t feel the same way that I do.

Why are we doing this to ourselves?

I find myself fucking up and saying shit to make myself feel better.

Meanwhile, it’s clearly hurting you and I see it.

Lord knows that I see it.

But here I go again, pretending to be blind.

Pretending that I don’t want you to be mine.

Wondering if I fucked up for good, this time.

Please just give me another chance.

I promise I’ll do the best that I can to show you what you mean to me.

I’ll show you that it’s okay to feel the way that you do for me.

Show you, that I don’t want to leave.

You get mad and tell me that I don’t know you.

Just give me the chance to get to know the real you.

The you, that’s not trying their hardest to protect themselves.

The you, that knows that I don’t mean any harm.

So, what do you say?

Will you do me the honor of letting me in?